Life and its intracies, fallacies and challenges
A while ago I had sent mails containing a set of questions to my colleagues and superiors at work asking about my performance, my behaviour and my contributions to the organizations.
While the feedback has been generally positive (Very gracious of the folks here ;) ) the weakness/criticism was sort of common across all the feedback replies. I tend to rush things ;)
I guess I do that sometimes, not putting in enough thought or maybe just try to meet the deadline. But that is mainly due to my laying a greater emphasis on meeting deadlines than anything else. But I am now realizing that I have to lay more emphasis on thoroughness and completeness rather than speed.
Well, the best thing this questionnaire has done is given me stuff to improve myself on and other “qualities” which are appreciated by others :)
When should one admit failure and decide that yes, this is not possible and give up on it? Should it be till one is blue in the face trying every possible idea and tread all know/unknown paths, then finally give up in disgust or should one save time and effort acknowledging that it is beyond one’s capacity. Both have merits and demerits..
Sigh..
Yes, it’s been quite long since I’ve posted. Work, a project I have recently taken up and my MBA applications have all contributed to my hardly having any spare time or for that matter, even a social life..
We have a release this month so it should be slightly easier after that.
MBA applications are killer. There is so much to do and with so little time, they are suffering the most. I have to write, on an average ~4.5 essays per University application. But one of the best things about these essays are that they force me to think about myself, my past and what I have done and what I seek to do in the future. They have required quite a bit on introspection (which I have done, sometimes into the wee hours of the night) :)
I have recently sent out questionnaires to people I work with so that I can get feedback about myself and how I am viewed by them.. This should be interesting ;)
Sleep is a precious commodity which I am losing out on big time. I feel I am perpetually in the land of tiredness :(
In other news, I received my Toefl Score which I must say I’m quite surprised with. I got a 114 out of a possible 120 which is on the higher side of my expectations. And I’m not complaining :D
Ok.. I’m done with GMAT. Atleast for the first time. The reason why I have not posted about it yet is because I’m disappointed with both myself and the measly score I could achieve :(
Anyway, I got a 700 but I’m not happy at all with it. Some of the nicer people in my life ( :) ) tried to cheer me up by saying it’s a good score but it’s not, atleast not for me!
I will have to see what to do next after my Toefl (on the 4th of Aug) firstly hoping I don’t screw that up. I will definitely consult someone with more experience, most likely a career/US education counselor to try and put my score in better perspective and what chances I have!
Sigh.. C’est la vie :(
Update: Got my essay score report. Scored a 5 on 6. More than I expected :)
Will have to see if it balances the lower main score.
Not that I wasn’t ;) Well comic actually but that’s just being technical. :P
But I’ve been sorta featured in a cartoon :D I’d posted a few weeks earlier about Skeletor and Hordak, Partner’s in crime. It’s in the same one..
Link to the comic
Ps. You need to read the previous few issues to actually understand why I’m there and what penguins are doing in a Skeletor & Hordak Comic strip. Oh and do read the community info to understand more about the community ;)
Looks like my GMAT preps are royally jinxed :(
Why? Let me try to explain.
When I first started preparing, soon after that there was an upcoming function which made me virtually give up all studying for about a forthnight. A month after that there was another function, the temple opening which again caused a break for a fortnight.
Now I am the type who, even after multiple breaks can almost always resume studying right from where I stopped the previous time, even middle of the chapters. So this time I resolved to study much more determinedly and take no breaks no matter what. But it had hardly been 10 days (by days I mean normal days when I have to work as well as rush back home and study for whatever little time I get in the evenings), when I came down with a viral fever. That caused an interruption of another 3-4 days because I usually felt too tired to even sit for half an hour.
Well I recovered from that and had been studying when yesterday I think I have contracted conjunctivitis. Now it’s not confirmed since by the time I could visit my ophthalmologist, it was closing time and she would not take a look at my eye. I’ll be going to the doc and will be hoping that it is _not_ an infection but just a false alarm and if it is, it’s relatively mild and will allow me to study atleast semi-normally!
Bah!
Thus speaketh