Random thoughts which are not so interesting and not so elaborate
I’ve just started reading Eats, Shoots & Leaves. It’s a book about the incorrect usage of punctuation in the written language today and the misinterpretation the incorrect punctuation might cause. I’ve only completed it partly but it seems quite interesting except for the failing attempts of the author at humor. It gets grating at times.
Why am I writing about this? Well as a warning. More than a couple of my friends refer to me as a “Grammar Nazi” and well let this be a warning that I am arming myself further to interrupt and correct you when you make a punctuation error :P
Since i was about 2 months old, I’ve had a condition which made the involuntary nervous control of my neck muscles weak. Due to this, I do not have complete control over my neck and unconsciously “shake” it from one side to the other.
Unfortunately since its not under my control, I never realize when I’m shaking my head. Most people understandably find it weird or funny, but surprisingly to me some people think I’m mocking them during a conversation (as I shockingly found out recently) which of course is not my intention.
And it’s not like I’ve not tried getting it treated. My parents and I have consulted more than 50 docs over the years without success. I have tried allopathy, homeopathy, ayurveda, physiotherapy, yoga, concentration exercises etc. And yes, (very unlike me) even meditation. But as obvious, to no avail :(
While most people ignore it, many tend to make fun by giving me names, mimicking it or joking about it behind my back. As a kid, I’d get upset (quite a bit) with anyone who made fun. But as I’ve grown up, I’ve started to ignore it all, even suppressing a very strong feeling to confront a colleague who was making fun. Ultimately decided that someone like that is not worth me getting upset (and it being a weekend also helped :) )
why am I writing all this? And out of the blue? I don’t know. But I just felt like “venting” when a guy who goes by the same bus as me mimicked me.
Maybe it is this that has made me the social inept and introvert that I am. It’s not that I am short of self-confidence (or according to mom, I’m over confident) but I’ve somehow held back on interacting with people, very importantly, acquaintances (people I know but who I don’t consider friends)
I want to overhaul the looks of my bike and make it look better. But i wanna do it myself(hence excludes paint jobs).
Trouble being lack of time, experience and unusually bright ideas.
Have an idea in mind but is not innovative. Just got it as i tried to fall asleep, so had to get up to sketch it before i forget ;)
Reminded of trains (Protected entry unfortunately) I wanna go for a train journey too.. To someplace cool for a vacation.
I love trains. They have such a rustic and Indian feel to them. I love train journeys but for the time they take. But it’s a fair trade off I think.
I think the dj in Purple Haze, Koramangala rocks.
He played one band after another from my favorites list without knowing of it obviously ;)
Sample – Megadeth, Iron Maiden, Audioslave, Metallica, Ratm, RHCP (in no particular order)
I’d go there just for the music.. (though I’m slightly high right now.. Shhhh ;) )
Sometimes some of my close friends have asked if I am committed to the friendship or that what they mean to me. I always feel awkward in such situations because I feel that they’ll feel I’m saying how I feel out of force or without meaning it and instead saying just to answer their question.
On the other side, sometimes when I feel like saying how important someone is to me, I don’t ask my friends of stuff they don’t tell me and so don’t want to be taken wrongly if they are going around with someone. Or I don’t want to be interpreted as trying to say something else.
Because of this, i have stopped myself from talking after starting, deleted completely typed emails and erased such txt msgs.
Oh why so many complications and why do i think so much..
I’ve been trying to improve my Hindi to an extent where I can go through an entire conversation without using a word of English. I’ve mostly failed miserably at it because I don’t know such pure Hindi. But I want to learn. Problem is, there isn’t anyone who I can converse with to practice and no material from where to learn and practice on my own.
And only in this attempt have I realized how bad my Hindi is and how difficult articulating myself in it is. And people think I’m nuts if I try to talk purely in Hindi. A colleague has even called me crazy for trying to use pure Hindi because according to her, it’s to medieval :D
Some times I think I really AM nuts :-|
Thus speaketh