Sometimes some of my close friends have asked if I am committed to the friendship or that what they mean to me. I always feel awkward in such situations because I feel that they’ll feel I’m saying how I feel out of force or without meaning it and instead saying just to answer their question.

On the other side, sometimes when I feel like saying how important someone is to me, I don’t ask my friends of stuff they don’t tell me and so don’t want to be taken wrongly if they are going around with someone. Or I don’t want to be interpreted as trying to say something else.
Because of this, i have stopped myself from talking after starting, deleted completely typed emails and erased such txt msgs.

Oh why so many complications and why do i think so much..