I always believe being frank to be advantageous. And with friends, I had always tried to be frank, even if it meant that sometimes I said something harsh, hoping that by saying the truth, I would prevent possible occurance of misunderstanding later.
But due to various reason, people going far(not in terms of physical distance), change in perceptions about people and a general disinterest, I had of late stopped speaking out to friends, not saying what I felt like saying or should say but instead kept it bottled up within myself. Heck have it bottled up even now!
But today, a conversation which started with some irrelevant topic got to the point where I spoke frankly to a friend, spoke about something that had recently bothered me and even pissed me off to an extent. And when I said it out, the reason due to which I had been pissed turned out to be so inconsequential because it actually stemmed from a reaction to something I had myself said, something which I now find extremely distasteful and idiotic. Nevertheless, once I realised the root cause, I realised it was my fault and that immediately turned my irritation to guilt and shame!
But it did do one thing. It cleared up the situation, erased any possible resentment and simmering billigerence and thus prevented any possible ugliness in the future.
And I am extremely glad :)
Yes, I will not reveal any info, but you know it ;)
An actor called Rajkumar, Dr. RajKumar actually, a local actor, died today. Though we got the news at about 1430, It was not a big deal to me except that I got a half day off ;). But what I did not like, kinda pissed me off was the reactions of his so called fans.
There were reported rioting, tyre burning and apparantely calls for a bandh tomorrow. And all this because Rajkumar died. It’s not like he was murdered or killed in some demonstration but he died of natural causes. So what do these fans want to prove? That he should have been immortal? Or are they showing their fanboyism by mourning his death by stoning others burning tyres? What are you exactly trying to prove?
No I did not really like Rajkumar because he was a huge influence and in my opinion he did not always use that influence for the right. But that’s my opinion! And now with his death, he is only causing grief to people who are affected by these riots. A friend of mine narrowly escaped today. A stone thrown at her bus hit a window close to where she was sitting. I am glad nothing happend to her and she escaped unhurt.